Love is lost, heart is gone

Monday, January 26, 2009

juz 20min before i though i can travel happily to msia.. surfing around my msn.. notice that she.. her.. deleted me from msn.. i was very shocked.. and sad.. i didnt know wat i did to make her so angry with me, till she have to block all contacts with me .. rmb the day i asked u that question.. and the day u told me u will consider?.. that was one of the happiest moment in my life.. but now .. i dont feel like myself anymore.. my heart is broken.. tears shed continuously .. i really wish i can get an explaination.. i tried to forget u.. to hate u.. but i simply CANT.. my mind still doesnt wanna give up on u.. that causes me to get hurt daily as i notice more about u .. i really dunno wat else i can do.. give me a guide line.. tell me wat i should do.. i remembered i sweared to u that if i drink alcohol w/o ur permission, i will be striked by lighting or bang down by a lorry.. tis evening i drank 1 cup.. and i really hope.. this curse will work on me.. becuz i really dunno wat else i can do or say anymore.. harted is all i can feel inside u to me.. u left my life.. and u didnt fail to plant mines inside it, till u ran far, it exploded, and all im left was broken bones and wound.. U ARE A DEVIL! WHY DID U CHANGE MY LIFE INTO TIS FORM? i rmb the day u said u wan some items, i FARMED for total of more than 50hours.. juz for u.. to have ur item and u can improve ur damage to training.. but now .. it seems that u had already forgotten who that item is from.. wat i said here, i dunno if u will read or nt, but im juz telling u, i have no intention of getting it back, once i give an item, i will never think of having it back. thats my rule of life.. hope u understand.. 2009, chinese new year.. cried on 3.40am ..

Labels: death, im still waiting ..

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