Love is lost, heart is gone

Thursday, August 15, 2013

I've finally understand the cruelty of fate in this world.

Time is only left to heal this scar left in me.

The future seems so dark that i can no longer see anything

It feels as thou, I've lost everything in this world, or was it because I had made you to be everything in my life?

Heart sank when those words were heard. The whole term ended with a blast.

Just when i thought happiness ever after, fate came crashing into my life and destroys all hope that i had.

This cold and hard fact came crashing right at my face.

Although i know, all these chances that i assumed to have are just the illusions that my inner desire created to blind me from the real world.

In the past, i had always thought that, i might be given a chance if im always being nice, to be there when she needs me. to be a supporting shoulder when required, to be someone she can fully depend on. I never once had any form of complain or reluctance when required to go extra miles for her, and i always thought that i can use my sincerity to move her.

Yet, I've never been so wrong.

It came crashing in with no form of holding back and tells me, i would never ever have a chance.

I tried to be strong, i held back my tears for as much as i can but to no vein.

I no longer have a will to live anymore. All along, i've only looked forward to your text, to see you smile.

Yet, i know that this chance will also soon be gone.

I really hope to put an end into this life.

This truth is too painful for me to face..

I'm really unsure anymore if time is able to heal this scar.

3 years just seems so short in this very instant.

Can my pain be comprehended?

I just cant believe tears are falling by just typing each lines where my heart instructs me to.

Fate, i really lost badly this time.

10:04 PM