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Thursday, April 23, 2009

lots to post today (: enjoy
somehow words juz keep pouring out of my mind.. i'll now juz start with schools and education ..

played chiense chess today . its an interesting match. hope to play with ms wong somedays. haha =P anyway, congrats to ms _____ for going to become mrs ___ :D
as asked not to leak any name or infomation, i can only use blank :D ok. serious matter now ..

now, i felt that its really a time to bck up already.. some how i feel that my studies is getting from bad to worst. not counting maths but.. sigh. i dunno why. i wanan study. but i cant do it . my goal of life.. im having doubt that i can even achieve my ever wanting dream. but it seems to me that it is almost impossible.
astronomy.. how hard must i do to get into that?
ppl asked me why i wan astronomy so badly, it seems like a dam boring subject. but no. astronomy. the ultimate uses of physic calculation and maths. to calculate time, to twist time and to even travel though time. it may sound frictional.. but i think it is possible. i dunno why, my goal seems to grow leg and were running away from me . thining on wat i have to go though scares me alot, not the subjects but the amount of time taken. just a PH.D itsels is gonna take at least 6years. degree courses and master degree ? i dare not think. who is going to fund me till so far?
i really is confused, it seems like i can only/ want to get astronomy . but yet, my one and only goal seems so far ahead. do i still have hope? now maths i cant even tahan a simple maths on geometry which i cant bloody understand. how can i even do things like :

2
( G * M ) v * R
v = sqrt ( ----- ) or M = -------
( R ) G

OR

L is the luminosity (Watts)
pi is 3.14159...
R is the radius of the star (meters)
T is the temperature (Kelvin) W
sigma is the Stefan-Boltzmann constant: 5.67 x 10^(-8) ---------
m^2 * K^4

and even questions like this

Most galaxies move away from us, which causes a positive shift in wavelength; that means a shift towards the red end of the spectrum. Astronomers call this a redshift. We often measure the size of the redshift with this formula:

shifted lambda
z = -------------- - 1
lambda

where
z is the "redshift" of the object
lambda is the rest wavelength
shifted lambda is the observed wavelength

after looking at them.. i started to lose confident, a person like me, who score average for even secondary level. can i go that far? ): someone enlighten me please..

anyway. i would wanna improve my maths again,, the most basic way of improving myself is to teach others at the same time. so, i would now wanna offer some maths tuition for both msn/rl. i only have a rule which is : i only teach those who is willing to learn. if u are really willing to learn, u can contact me though msn. noted that this is only for my friends only (:
topics like algebra and sine rule / bearings.

just wondering, is 2012 doomsday true? will the earth juz goes ''BOOM'' on the 2012 dec 21th? . things like sun solar flare heated up and hit earth? pole shifted suddenly in afew hours? natural disasters destory mankind? or even a giant meteo from somewhere far from space crashing into earth and goes ''BOOM''? or the worst i can think of is the sun just finish its ''fuel'' and cooled down? and soon developed into a black hole and earth kena sucked inside? global warming is a hint to earth. WE ARE ALL GONNA DIE! ~ or maybe not? will human develop a time machine on time ?

time machine. wat are they? can a human move from time to time? from century to century? albert einstine said that it is possible. most astrologist also said it can be done. item needed were dark matter and a located wormhole (if there is any). dark matter is hypothetical matter that is undetectable by its emitted radiation, but whose presence can be inferred from gravitational effects on visible matter.If you could travel back in time, where would you go? Actually it’s a trick question: you couldn’t travel back in time unless there was a time “machine” already built in the past. The universe’s very first time traveller would therefore only be able to travel back to when the machine he/she was using was built. This is one restriction that puts pay to those romantic ideas that we could travel back in time to see the dinosaurs; there were no time machines back then (that we know of), so nothing to travel back to. And until we create a time machine, we won’t be seeing any travelers any time soon.. thats the law of time traveling. friction or fact? its up to u to guess.. (:

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