Love is lost, heart is gone

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

blink of an eye, its sem 2 in poly now.
too many things had happened now and im lost.
utterly lost in this chaotic world..
how i wish, someone is here, to enlighten me, to guide me through.
it seems to me, happeniness ended so much faster and i have a bad feeling, the next sorrow thats about to come, will strike me so hard, i might just collapse and struggles to get up.

im talking about my hamster.
Recently , she has been very lazy. Sleeping wholeday long. i doesnt know what happened to her.
Was playing with her at my new DIY maze just now and she wasnt running around much.
mum says that our hamster is rather old, getting on her age. and might go anytime.
that instant, i just stunned n i just blank out. just nodding to 应酬 my mum, i stares closely at my hamster.. as i slowly brushes her fur, i can feel her body temperature, her heart beat..

Hammie, i've to say.. this 2months spending with you, it makes me very happy. Watching you sleep beside me now makes me feel like giving u a hug. but i cant do that.. as u are still small in size.. I've a wish, to able to sleep with you, beside me on my arms. but i doubt its gonna happen.. all i can say is. i really love you hammie. Please stay strong and accompany me throughout. i know im selfish but, i really need a close companion with me by my side..
i swear i'll breakdown if u ever leave me .
i dreamt of me losing u,
i had 'lost' you once before as u escaped but eventually hide in my room,
i wont wanna lose you again. never.

i can give up on BGR.
but i cant give up on you hammie.
'papa' loves you.

11:12 PM